I guess after all this

At the end of the day, all I really want is someone to talk to.

Someone to hear me out for once.
Someone to not just want to be with me because of my looks, but to just feel for me because what I feel. Hear what I have to say for once. And comprehend what I say. But I have no clue.

I've been neglecting some people. The girls that want to be a part of me, but all they really say is, "I like you!" and for what reason? hmm they don't know me. Know of me or can't even relate. Whatever though, I'm just doing me right?

or am I just searching for something else?

For us

For us to be destined to find the determinations,
Influences others by expressing those acheivements.
The wants of our needs seem to be greedy,
but those people who try to grapse their wants do deserve that desire.
The desire to achieve that goal that they are striving for.
Big ups to people getting what they deserve.
You did your best.
Now it's our turn.
Let's make moves!

Summer

Let's do another run before the night meets the sun
While the light meets the night while we chill in the 101

Long drives on the 15 we meet with the fellows out there that we see, we see
Even though the little village we have, we outlast the world that we seek, we seek

Outside in heat where we share drinks and eats
while we play games and ninja on the street

Thug love with the 8ball in hand
while we pass on the juice to the other friend

We got 1, we got 2, we got 3 for you
We got 4 , we got 5, we got 6 to choose
We got 7, we got 8, we got 9 to lose
By the time we hit 10, we start over again, now let loose.. loose.. loose.. loose


Here we go again so this is summer
Always in the heat but cant find your lover
Finish your drink and go grab another
make your breathe stink while the malt sinks further

Light headed, feeling the buzz

Sip the tre-duece and see what it does

snake venom juice make flow through your veins

Let it run through the body, let it enter the brain

Feeling good?.. feeling good... like it should?.. like it should
If all else fails take a sip of the goose


YAAY I lose. =)

AGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

AUIDOAEF
....................
oh my god...........
I dont know what I'm thinking about anymore..
Life was done.. Life is done.
Time to start a new one

I'm sorry

For always turning invisible.
For always defending something that's not believed in.
Im sorry for trying to defend you.
I'm also sorry for even trying to be a friend.
I can be a disapointment.
I'm sorry.

To the people that looked up to me.. I'm sorry for falling.
I'm sorry for falling back on what you viewed me as.
I'm sorry for failing for what you see me as.
Believing that I was something.. but end up being nothing.

I'm sorryy.. I really dont know what I do.. What I am... What I be..
I'm sorry for being intimidating or even being a person not to upset.
WHAT THE FUCK... I'm here for you.. any of you guys.. I dont Understand what I do.
To Influence minds because I dont understand what makes you think about me.
I'm NOT a boss. Nor a RoleModel.. not someone that will chop off you arm..
I'm Just a friend so stop thinking Ill get mad about anything.
UAWHUAWFJNHAFJFA
I'm beginning to lose everything.. by having this title or superior being. FUCK MEE!
FUCCCCCCKKKK MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK MEE!

Can niggas just be my friend without being scared of what I'll think?...
I'm just trying to inspire you guys for what you guys can do... I'm trying to bring out the best of all of youu!!!!.. So pleasee..
Can I just be a friend.. without having that father rolemodel title....


To you thugs.
I love all you!








............

I hate me

I know People have their problems.
People have way worse problems than me.
But I hate me.
I slack. I give up. I'm weak.
I dont like where I'm standing.
..........

Day 4 of the Summer program

Day 5 will just be working out. No more running! hahha FINALLY!
Freakin this program better get me super buff or skinny to where I can take my shirt off and not be ashamed of my rolls. GG!

Well I'm really really bored.. I have to drop of Angela later on. We were gonna watch UP but I think that plan is failure. Hmm. I'm also black!
-CUZ I'M BLACK YA'LL
-CUZ I'M BLACK YA'LL
-CUZ I'M BIGGITY BIG CUZ I'M BLACK YA'LL

I got so dark. It's starting to actually hurt my head. Well maybe sitting in the dark, in front of a computer is making it hurt. My OG-Bestfriend and Ading are sleeping on the bed while Twilight is on. Oh jeeze. How will I wake them up? hmmm. hhha. BAHHH

ps. they cute together

AEIOFHEAIOFHNAEFH IM SO BORED. FEAUBNOUOBN AEOUI ENHIOF NHEIOFHNuioaefnhiual;rrghAEIFBIAEBFHIEABFHiu =((((()((()()()))((()))

Time to lose more weight.
LET's RUN THIS
blehhhhh